In the past 6-7 months I have been extremely anxious all the time for no reason what so ever. I kept telling my brain daily that everything was alright, but all it took was one inconvenience and it returned. School just added more gasoline to the fire, and I had a mental breakdown every time I was going to see my grade report card. I always feel like I am wasting my time, so I wake up early; but when night time arrives, I become frustrated at "losing too much hours". This constant paranoia and dread of time and excessive worry of events happening in the near future is so painful I often become emotional. And people crying at my school is guaranteed for you to be labelled soft, so I have to disguise myself wiping my boogers when my eyes become teary. I usually wonder "what if this happened, or that happened and my entire life is ruined" and it is becoming more severe and worrying. I literally feel like I am on the Truman Show and everyone is watching my private life on some sort of sitcom, it's terrifying. Sorry for sounding like an edgy 13-year-old venting on TikTok because his favorite rapper died, I just wanted to get my message out.